1. Does Following Your Heart Bring All It Promises?
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1. Does Following Your Heart Bring All It Promises?
Does reaching your goals bring the satisfaction in life it seems to promise?
My Memoir
Right now I am working on a memoir that I am writing through a year long autobiography program at City College . It is perhaps the most difficult project I have ever attempted. Or maybe it just seems that way since I am in the midst of it now. Ever since I moved to New York seven years ago, I hoped that someday I would be able to write about the experience of how I got here. I want to tell about how I felt trapped, questioning who I was, leaving my career, questioning my faith in God, arriving in New York , coming back around to a changed and more humble faith in God, and ultimately becoming more honest with myself.
I am writing about things I don't want to remember, parts of my life that are very hard to look at. I'm writing about them because I think they are critical to the story. As difficult as it is, it is also very healing - healing for parts of my past that I still felt ashamed of.
Scary Choices
The changes I made in my life seven years ago were the scariest choices I have ever made, and they were also the most thrilling. Letting go of what I knew was safe and comfortable to find truth. Sometimes I wondered, "What if it is truth I am in fact leaving?" - but I knew that thought was just fear.
So, does reaching your goals, going for your dream, really bring the satisfaction it seems to promise?
I can only answer this question from my own journey.
No Simple Answer
I don't think this question is a simple one. My life is certainly far more fulfilling than it was before. I have a deeper knowledge of who I am, and because I gave myself the opportunity to live in a place where I have access to all the things I enjoy - walking for my main source of transportation, parks, dancing, academia - I find myself enjoying life more in my body and less in my head. I'm living out what I want to be doing instead of thinking about what I want to be doing.
But life is complicated. While there is a deeper satisfaction, there are still problems. New York is a very lonely city - I know this is true for many who live here. Achieving what you desire does not answer all of your problems, it's just part of the journey - a necessary part of the journey I believe - but still just part.
Still Forks in the Road
And I still come to forks in the road where I am tempted to take the comfortable route - I'm given a choice again - comfortable route or following my heart - going with the flow, or being honest. The choice is sometimes easy, but it is often still a hard one. But maybe what I do get, from choosing my heart over what is comfortable, even when it's a scary decision - is peace. I have peace within myself because I know I'm not contradicting who I am. I have peace because I trust that I am doing the right thing. My identity grows stronger and that knowledge of who I am allows me to build more intimate relationships - because I'm not hiding.
So. Does following your heart bring all you think it will? Perhaps not. But it still brings something absolutely amazing and not worth missing out on.
Part 1 and Part 2 of this series should be in the newsletter archives soon:
What Does It Mean To Follow Your Heart? (part 1)
Will All Your Dreams Come True? (part 2)
P.S. I have one spot available in my women's group for March. Please contact me if you are interested.
melissa@myheartdances.com or 917-689-653
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